I'm ditching this blog. I should have written this blog post a couple of weeks ago.
But I never had the time. Or should I say, I never made time.
Why quit?
I should start Why I began this blog.
Because I wanted to. I wanted to have a body of work---Writing work. I wanted to create my own space online. I had my own visual space online in deviantart. But I left.
I wrote last year to document my the recent happenings in my life.
I now write to share my thoughts.
....and it's precisely why I'm sharing my thoughts that I'm saying goodbye to this blog.
Ah, but I'm starting a new blog anyway.
What's the difference? Why start a new blog when I'm just going to do the same thing?
Privacy. Anonymity.
Yep, I won't use my real name anymore.
But why?
Privacy. Anonymity.
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2015 was a roller-coaster year for me. A year full of new beginnings and endings:
I left my old job for a new job. I was rejected a US Visa. I ended a long year friendship. I started to study in graduate school. I listened to someone confess. I was burdened on how to handle the confession (should I tell or not). I decided not to interfere in another party's problems. I met someone whom I wanted to have a future with, and a few months later, that person now must go away because of the nature of his job. I met new friends. I started to have an interest in home-making. I started to take watercolor painting lessons. I started to have new dreams. I started to hope. I decided to stop chasing creativity and just, LIVE.
Our GS 101 teacher asked us during our first day, "What symbol would best represent you, and why did you choose that?"
I answered "Sketchpad. Because it's full of possibilities, like me! I'm also full of possibilities."
So before I fill out that sketchpad, I must close this the old sketchpad. It's full. there are no more pages. I can't believe I'm writing this... but maybe it's a ritual.
Yeah, a ritual.
So adios,mi blog!
'Til I write to revive you again!
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